It has been a difficult week. I struggled through saying goodbye to my grandpa, a goodbye only for a little while, and then found out the news a few days later. One of my friends found me crying and I knew they were just tears of joy, thinking of memories. I see God's hand so much. That day, I wasn't thinking much along those lines which was unusual. I had a friend ask me how I was, had another friend give me a little gift. Dad called me but I was at work, and for some reason unlike every other time, I didn't think that it was bad news. It seizes to amaze me, that God knows the exact hour and time. Even now I am smiling and the tears are forming. What a life lived. I bought some pink roses this week and as they begin to droop and fade, I'm thinking about many things. Grandpa's life was beautiful. Just as those roses, he faded, but the best part is that it's only for a time...I know there was much rejoicing on the twenty-eighth when a saint made it home.
There was also news of a friend's mom who lost her job and another friend who's friend lost her baby.
My struggle with school seems so trivial but God is sovereign and nothing is a surprise to him. All this reading and papers and yet it sometimes seems like you are getting nowhere. The truth is progress is made and yes there is so much more to life than school. It has value, but it is all a part of the big picture.

He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young. -Isaiah 40:11

But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint. -Isaiah 40:31

Keep up the faith and the fight, it's so worth it!