Mixed Thoughts

I had a code red explosion today. Much like the tea and purple explosion. Somehow I have a tendency for creating big overflowing spills so much so that they seep down into drawers and it is not cool. At least I know how to clean them up now.

On a much more serious note I went and saw My Sister's Keeper. Stop. If you want to see it, you probably shouldn't read the rest of this but be forewarned you should prepare yourself and be ready to cry. (though I don't think you can quite prepare yourself for viewing or experiencing something like that, I tried and merely ended up quite fidgety, taking deep breaths, and losing all my makeup). Ok so the story line is basically that there's a daughter, Katie, who has cancer, since she was very young. Her sister, Anna, was born In Vitro fertilization so that she could give her organs to save her sister's life. This in and of itself creates psychological and difficult self-worth issues. It's also a question of ethics which Anna and Katie try to wrestle with and force their parents to contemplate. Anna proceeds to sue her parents for the rights of her own body. Meanwhile the whole family is falling apart. The son is forgotten, comes home late and dad doesn't even realize he's been gone, along with Anna, who is merely trying to fulfill all of Katie's wishes and hold it together. Some of the most heart wrenching and difficult scenes revolve around a book Katie makes along with the flashbacks. The judge involved in the case also has a history in which her daughter was killed by a drunk driver. And the lawyer suffers from a disease as well only revealed when he tries for a recess, is denied, and runs out of the room because of a seizure. Once again I was brought to the realization that you NEVER know what people are facing daily.

Anyway, the movie progresses with narration and views by each individual. Katie apologizes to everyone in her family: "To mom-I took your life away as you cared for me, To dad-I took your true love away, To my brother-I'm sorry I took all the attention when you needed it, To Anna-I'm sorry I let them hurt you." I got to thinking how difficult sickness is and how it affects EVERYONE in the family. It wasn't Katie's fault that she was sick and yet she was apologizing for the affects of her sickness.

I appreciated the storyline of the brother, it's honesty. It is revealed that Katie tells Anna to sue her parents so that Anna will have a life that Katie never will. The brother helps Anna, but then realizes his family is falling apart and he has to let his sister go. When he tears up the image of Katie is another powerful and difficult time. Finally, he interrupts the court and pleads for his mom to let Katie go so that their family can heal. Katie's relationships with Taylor is another tragedy, granted it is marked with some joyful times. As he takes care of her on the first day of a radiation or chemo treatment you see the depth of his love for her and shortly after experience her loss. Katie then has something else on top of the cancer to deal with and work through. The role of the dad as well, is difficult as he takes Katie to the beach and has to stand up to or carry his wife through it if you will. This beach scene was really powerful, mom and dad are arguing and yelling at each other over whether or not she should go to the beach and brother and sister are told to get in the car and they are like what are we supposed to do. The dad went through all of that because it was the best for his daughter. I can't imagine the emotions, the heartache, and the joy that develops but this movie gives a little look. Each character has their own struggles and well there really aren't any words to sum it up. It's something you never get over and something you have to deal with when it happens. But I think many of us, if not all of us have experienced at least one of those situations in the movie. There was one significant thing missing in this picture.Praise the Lord there is hope in Salvation. I honestly don't know what I would do if I did not have the Lord and had to go through this.

Personally, as I sat there and balled, I thought about how difficult it's going to be when my relatives and loved ones pass. I have lost one grandfather to cancer and my other grandpa is battling it as we speak. There will be many tears and all I know is that we will have to cling to our hope in the Lord.

On a much more menial level but a blessing never the less, the sun is shining and I think the movie encourages you to treasure and really live out each moment, opportunity, and day. Whew, I get sick and upset even remembering it but at the rate we're going with all of the news and economy, this is our life. The question is how, is our story going to be lived out?