Tuesday, June 30, 2009

patience is a virtue.
Mixed Thoughts

I had a code red explosion today. Much like the tea and purple explosion. Somehow I have a tendency for creating big overflowing spills so much so that they seep down into drawers and it is not cool. At least I know how to clean them up now.

On a much more serious note I went and saw My Sister's Keeper. Stop. If you want to see it, you probably shouldn't read the rest of this but be forewarned you should prepare yourself and be ready to cry. (though I don't think you can quite prepare yourself for viewing or experiencing something like that, I tried and merely ended up quite fidgety, taking deep breaths, and losing all my makeup). Ok so the story line is basically that there's a daughter, Katie, who has cancer, since she was very young. Her sister, Anna, was born In Vitro fertilization so that she could give her organs to save her sister's life. This in and of itself creates psychological and difficult self-worth issues. It's also a question of ethics which Anna and Katie try to wrestle with and force their parents to contemplate. Anna proceeds to sue her parents for the rights of her own body. Meanwhile the whole family is falling apart. The son is forgotten, comes home late and dad doesn't even realize he's been gone, along with Anna, who is merely trying to fulfill all of Katie's wishes and hold it together. Some of the most heart wrenching and difficult scenes revolve around a book Katie makes along with the flashbacks. The judge involved in the case also has a history in which her daughter was killed by a drunk driver. And the lawyer suffers from a disease as well only revealed when he tries for a recess, is denied, and runs out of the room because of a seizure. Once again I was brought to the realization that you NEVER know what people are facing daily.

Anyway, the movie progresses with narration and views by each individual. Katie apologizes to everyone in her family: "To mom-I took your life away as you cared for me, To dad-I took your true love away, To my brother-I'm sorry I took all the attention when you needed it, To Anna-I'm sorry I let them hurt you." I got to thinking how difficult sickness is and how it affects EVERYONE in the family. It wasn't Katie's fault that she was sick and yet she was apologizing for the affects of her sickness.

I appreciated the storyline of the brother, it's honesty. It is revealed that Katie tells Anna to sue her parents so that Anna will have a life that Katie never will. The brother helps Anna, but then realizes his family is falling apart and he has to let his sister go. When he tears up the image of Katie is another powerful and difficult time. Finally, he interrupts the court and pleads for his mom to let Katie go so that their family can heal. Katie's relationships with Taylor is another tragedy, granted it is marked with some joyful times. As he takes care of her on the first day of a radiation or chemo treatment you see the depth of his love for her and shortly after experience her loss. Katie then has something else on top of the cancer to deal with and work through. The role of the dad as well, is difficult as he takes Katie to the beach and has to stand up to or carry his wife through it if you will. This beach scene was really powerful, mom and dad are arguing and yelling at each other over whether or not she should go to the beach and brother and sister are told to get in the car and they are like what are we supposed to do. The dad went through all of that because it was the best for his daughter. I can't imagine the emotions, the heartache, and the joy that develops but this movie gives a little look. Each character has their own struggles and well there really aren't any words to sum it up. It's something you never get over and something you have to deal with when it happens. But I think many of us, if not all of us have experienced at least one of those situations in the movie. There was one significant thing missing in this picture.Praise the Lord there is hope in Salvation. I honestly don't know what I would do if I did not have the Lord and had to go through this.

Personally, as I sat there and balled, I thought about how difficult it's going to be when my relatives and loved ones pass. I have lost one grandfather to cancer and my other grandpa is battling it as we speak. There will be many tears and all I know is that we will have to cling to our hope in the Lord.

On a much more menial level but a blessing never the less, the sun is shining and I think the movie encourages you to treasure and really live out each moment, opportunity, and day. Whew, I get sick and upset even remembering it but at the rate we're going with all of the news and economy, this is our life. The question is how, is our story going to be lived out?

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Powerful

How Deep the Father's love for Us by Stuart Townend

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
And make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon the cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom


This pretty much sums it up I think. Get's me every time. It's one of my favorites and maybe I'll be privileged enough to dance to it someday!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

7 votes

I don't know if anyone's keeping up with our politics but boy did they play a game yesterday. The cap and trade bill, which I'm still surprised it even got this far, was up for election. Though it's a green bill and sure our environment might appreciate it, it's got a lot more damage than good I'm afraid. Even if they taxed CO2 and other polluting gases, companies aren't going to stop emitting them. They are going to have to find a way to pay for the tax and its gonna trickle down to the very people the government claims it is supposed to help. And if we're not producing, surely China and other countries are going to pick up our slack and we'll have no income to even attempt to pull us out of the state of our economy. Furthermore, Obama claims that jobs will be created and the out-of-pocket money won't be that big of a difference-"a postage stamp". Wait a second. I'm old school and postage stamps have gone up to almost 50 cents per stamp, how many people do you know that send mail anymore? Though yahoo is reporting that it's only about a 100 dollar increase per household, I don't know many households that can afford even that at the moment and there's rumors that it could cost as much as $3,000. Maybe not even rumors as it sounds like Obama contradicted himself, he said earlier that 2 million jobs are going to be cut by this AND utility bills will skyrocket! 2 million jobs are going to be cut and you're telling me that it's going to help create jobs? People are claiming that this will put us as a "leader in clean energy jobs" but what good is that going to do in the long run? Aren't there environmental regulations in place already? There are too many holes in this bill, a claim that the bill is "not perfect" isn't comforting. I'm leery about this one to say the least. To top it all off, it passed by 7 votes! Sadly, many bills are passed at odd hours of the night but I do know that many American's tried to prevent this yesterday with phone calls and emails and I think that 7 vote difference resulted.

Check it out: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090627/ap_on_go_pr_wh/us_climate_bill

Friday, June 26, 2009

This is a long one but if you can make it through....

Sitting down to write a tribute or a reflection of this past week and these past nineteen years for that matter, I don't even know where to begin. It stirs a lot of different emotions and thoughts.

This week started out rough and is still not over. As America watched John and Kate separate, our hearts broke for the family. Yes they have become part of the statistic but we all hoped that they wouldn't. My plea is that they don't have to become that. TLC decided to stop airing John and Kate plus 8 until August and well, it looks like that chapter is over. I don't quite understand where the excitement of the change that John spoke of comes from or why they claim they are doing it for their kids. Every other word is about their kids but what about their marriage?

Following this, as a South Carolinian, we were informed that our governor was having an affair in Argentina. Of course there were mixed emotions about his disappearance, humor and curiosity, whatever the motives. Putting politics aside, I'm pretty sure that if the governor was needed somebody would have been available to oversee the necessary measures to either step in and/or inform the governor, the outcome is sad. It is not my place to judge and I hope that the media will handle it with some sort of respect. Sanford recalled that it started as a friendship, it digressed from there. I almost don't even want to read or hear about it anymore. It is enough to know that he did it and it is awful, but I don't want to read the emails and know all the details. One act and the consequences are dire, grave, and life-altering not only for him, but for everyone involved.

Emotions from these two stories, well as a young women it brings fear. You wonder who you can trust anymore and marriage has become, though it always has been, a daily battle. It takes work to be a success and maybe now it will be taken a bit more seriously. Now America is shocked if you are married to a member of the opposite sex and if it is both you and your spouse's only marriage.

With the deaths of Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson well again, where do you begin. Losing anyone is a horrendous, tragedy that no-one every gets over. Farrah battled cancer like so many others and lost. It makes you wonder what you will be remembered for. A smile, an "angel", a heart, a discovery, a sacrifice, an unknown soldier, a mother, a father, a brother, a sister, and the list goes on. One life, one death. Did she make it count? And Michael Jackson just passed a physical and died the next day. His story is not the only one that is peculiar. What about the chef who found out he had cancer and died days later. Or the lady who missed Air France Flight 447 and died in a car wreck on the way home? When it's your time to go, you have to go. Jackson was remembered for his infamous Thriller music video and his court appearances. He had fun but like many, he lived a troubled life. Farrah similarly went through divorce and a son who is spending much of his life in prison. You just never know what someone is going through.

With the death of Heath Ledger I didn't know if I could ever bring myself to watch The Dark Knight because he's dead. When he dies in the movie, he's not coming back to life. It hits too close to home and too close to real life. Along those lines, I don't think we'll ever be able to do those fun Thriller steps without a hint of sadness.

So where do these deaths, along with the impending wars in Iran and the nuclear threats of North Korea, leave a young woman. Well, first it puts a new perspective on life. I remember being so upset about the election of Obama not for reasons that most would think but mainly because I didn't entirely know what he stood for, how he would handle the issues of our day. What I did know, well, not all of it seemed good. Yes, I am glad we now have a black president as part of our history, but the fact that his race was even a question and a debate shows that the racial issues, whatever side, have not dissolved. With this I learned that God is in control.

Now I have to take this many steps further. Life and death are in His hands and for a nation and a world that is looking for hope in a hopeless era, be it the economy or wars, the Word needs to spread. People are dying for justice, literally, after the elections in Iran and as soldiers fight to establish and maintain peace in Iraq. Even in the Orange Revolution, the people were not going to put up with injustice and again, lives were lost for freedom. People need to know that "God knows the plans He has for them, plans to prosper and not to harm them (Jeremiah 29:11)." Just like after 9/11 and Hurricane Katrina, hearts are hungry. People want some sort of morals and justice in the world and I think it is time that the church steps up. It's time for me to take those extra five minutes at the Walmart cash register and ask the clerk how their day is. I need to share a smile. I need to spend less time in the world of the internet speculating and thinking about life, thinking about what should have happened and more time making things happen. I need to show the unfathomable love of Jesus in the New Testament.

How have I gotten to this point anyway. When did I stop asking people how they were doing and instead relied on their hourly face book status update. When did I feel more comfortable texting someone than calling them. Being texting buddies does not result in a life-long relationship. Who knows, maybe this face book era is just a fad and maybe when we have nothing left, we'll go back to making house calls and looking forward to the milkshake at the drive-in. I know this has been said by many before but maybe now, we are all really feeling it and the realization and effects of the internet age are settling in.

Suddenly passing my biology test or missing a movie isn't that important. Listening to a friend who can't find a job to pay for college becomes top priority. Being at the hospital with a loved one or sitting next to your best friend as she watches her dad battle cancer is where I should be. Maybe I'll study in my free time and strive for an 'A' because it's something I can do and though it may go unnoticed, the little things can become big triumphs. "And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him (Colossians 3:17)."

I know it will take a decision and following through. I am just as addicted to face book as the next person, but I think it's time to make a change. This may seem hypocritical as I'm posting this, but I'm planning and hoping to start now. Don't get me wrong, they can be beneficial and I certainly don't mean to stop using it all together. It's just that sometimes I guess I lose sight of my priorities. I'm a nineteen year old girl living in a world of uncertainty. It's time to start living and watch the miracles of God's redemption.


P.S. I was looking for a particular verse and couldn't find it but I did find these....

Titus 3:9-11
Ephesians 5:11-12
2 Peter 3

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

With all the news in the world: Iran, N. Korea, Sanford, the war in Iraq and more, you kind of get a new perspective on life.
6 books-5 dollars
Splittin' a spud max-8 dollarsish
Newspaper-75 cents
Summer Afternoon-priceless

"At your library you'll find everything you need to expand your horizon and help you to to succeed" Yes, I am a nerd and I do know our county library jingle but, we did just get 5 books for 6 dollars which you can't really beat. And a newspaper for 75 cents?! When was the last time you bought stuff so cheap. So I know the economy is hurting right now but it makes us remember that it doesn't take a lot to have a good time and I think it also calls for appreciation, which you generally can't have enough of.

Well I'm off to go get ready for dance-what a priviledge!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I think I killed my toe for about 24 hours
I went to open a big metal glass door at midlands tech and I wasn't paying attention and opened it right on my barefoot toe-flip flops i love you but really? So i had to to walk a ways to get to the bathroom. I tried to apply pressure and stop the bleeding and then walk back to my car-super far away-and search for a band aid. About halfway there me flip-flop was sticking to my foot because the blood was kind of well you get the picture. No band-aids in the car and I had none because I just took them out of my bag thinking hey I won't need them. Wrong. I headed back to the bathroom again and stopped the bleeding for the most part. But then it kind of throbbed a while longer and didn't look so pretty. My toe was like dented. After my 4 hour biology class i came home and tried to fix it some more, at least it's not bloody anymore. Oh but fyi dance, sweat, and a bad toe don't really mix. So like i said, i think i killed my toe for a couple hours but it's back in shape, sort of, today.
Everything about this makes me smile. With my dad teaching middle school for 20 years, we kind of enjoyed the experiences that went along with it and well ya gotta luv middle school i guess :) Haha i luv that the teacher videos it and the celebration commences like a typical middle school-complete and utter shock

Monday, June 22, 2009

It's tough being a scientist

Man, Mendel and his peas. Genetics. He did have a lot going for him. Being a monk and all he had the time to make history and he did. Must've been hard trying to figure out where his recessive genes disappeared too and wondering if they'd ever come back. Tough stuff.
Anyway it's a summer of biology and I learned a few interesting facts that might win me some millions on Who Wants to be a Millionaire. Apparently your eyes can tan. Yes I did say that, in the summer time they can get darker with exposure to the sun and thus tan in a sense. Oh and I learned that flamingos aren't really pink. They are more translucent and white, but apparently the male flamingos are attracted to the pink color and the females don't mind it. So the zoo puts in a pigment with their food. Who woulda thunk it. There went my childhood dreams, way to burst my bubble.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

"I am Robin Hood, Don't let me down ;)"

"People of Nottingham, will you tolerate this injustice? I for one will not!"-Robin Hood
Been watching Robin Hood, the BBC version from Netflix and am on Season 1, I think you can watch it on youtube as well. If you're up for some good v. evil and a pretty accurate setting (the Holy Wars) it's a really good show. There's some great quotes and as history repeats itself, if you take a close look, you could find some semblances to today's world.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Sad Day



Well, today is a sad day in the Schreck Household. The red wheelbarrow is no more. I don't know how many times it was pushed between the back and front yard and sadly there were some times when I probably didn't like it very much, even though it was a tool which was supposed to help me grow some character or something like that. (It did and I am grateful). I still can't believe it is sitting by the garbage can, that is no place for our red wheel barrow. It's part of the family. I've known it my whole life-19 years oi vey that's a good wheel barrow. I guess they don't make 'em like that any more. Sad.

It even left serving, daddy sad he was filling it up with sand and it just gave out. Toppled over.



Boy did we have some good days planting flowers. Little Emily and Daddy planting bushes in the side of the yard. First you dig a BIG hole and then you break up the roots a little bit. Set it down carefully. Then you gotta cover it up and pat it really gently. Dig a little trench and then pour some water on it. OOO a worm, look Daddy! Whew I know, don't get all teary on me now. It's hard, hold it in, you can do it.


Red wheel barrow you will be missed!

Cinco Semanas

Could've been out of my Spanish class after 40 minutes of the two hour class but alas I decided to stay and help the Citadel guy. So readers must understand a little bit about this guy, our encounters began on the first day of class in which he was doing his part in coming up with some conversation. Soon enough I realize he's a jokester, you know one of those guys who picks on you in good humor because he can and little ol' me is just gonna put up with it because i understand its just his personality. And it certainly did make the class entertaining and quite humerus.

Some of my favorite quotes were "Your one of those hippies aren't you, I wouldn't have the guts (ok it was a different word but I'm keepin' this g rated) to wear somethin' like that." (I gotta give him credit though because it was a compliment...i think) and the next day "your one of those Trekkies aren't ya" oh and it gets better, today I was "one of those video gamers who plays Halo 24/7 and collects Pokemon cards" and when discussing characteristics, "How do you say I'm tall, dark, and handsome in Spanish?" Ok, you really do learn a lot about people in Spanish class after all, it's language right? You know, what you use to communicate with people.

I'm pretty sure he thought I was one of the strangest people he had ever met and yes, it is kinda unusual to have lived in Ukraine for a year, and been to some other countries. And to go to school in Mississippi and have family in Oregon. But hey its my life and I am blessed to have it! So all I want to say to Mr. Citadel is, thanks for making Spanish so great and really, I'll never forget it :) P.S. Profesor Robert, Gracias por todo! Tu eres paciente con tus clases. I hope that was correcto :P

Thursday, June 18, 2009

So you think you can dance dance dance

These are my favorite pieces so far from episode one and two season 5. This season has so many strong dancers and its hard to see anyone go but these two pieces have been my favorites so far. The expression, music, storytelling, choreography, interpretation of the choreography, everything worked and as dance can be, it was pretty moving. I really liked the concept of the first one. The choreography, the crispness yet light quality of the execution of it were really well done. In the second one, I think the music had a big impact, not to put down the dancing, by no means, but it takes a lot of work to put it all together! Oh and my runner's up well there was a bunch, the Bollywood and contemporary, the ridiculously fast disco, Kayla and Max's pop-Kayla's positions were picture perfect and Max role played well





More favs :)



Excerpts from Leaper by Geoffrey Wood

Hey ya'll, just finished a book called the Leaper and it was a little slow but the ending definitely made up for it. The following are some of my favorite quotes and excerpts

"Without God, reality is madness. Reason will tell you so. You either madly trust in God, or you trust in a world gone made without him." p. 296

"It seems doing good isn't doing good. It's desiring to be there when God shows up with the good. The truth is you only need one beautiful thing to free you and talk you out of yourself." p. 300

"I see now, Father, that all heroes are unlikely, that the world doesn't need people to be more heroic, just less comfortable. More people willing to be less for someone else's benefit, eager to be used, to rush toward what's most needed and not away from it." p.300

"You don't change the world by telling it what to do, sitting at home, and telling it what you believe. You believe by throwing yourself into it. Making a leap, getting involved, then waiting, taking some one person's place for a while, one suffering person at a time." p.300

"At first, God's gift was annoying, an interruption. When the interruption became surprising, then God was simply terrifying. But God was alive." p.301

just some food for thought, enjoy the day....only get to live it once!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Lazy Saturday Mornings
Trying to sleep late, though it's not all that possible when you have to get up at 7 every morning. So when it's 8:00 and you think, woa it must be so late only to realize it's a mere hour difference, I decide to listen to some Adventures in Odyssey. Yes, I am 19 but I don't think they ever get old and as a teacher in training, well I guess you could say it goes with the passion and job :). Then like most Saturdays I studied in bed. Oddly enough I manage to get the most accomplished while still in my PJs. I eventually had some breakfast around the would-have been late hour if i had slept (10:00) and got ready. Craig's list was calling my name and though there's nothing I can take on at the moment, it's fun to look around. There was even a security job wanting bodyguards for a bar, that one brought a smile. Well it's lunchtime! Happy Saturday everyone!